Three pieces of “news” for you:
1) I finished a Costco-sized jar of peanut butter [almost] all by myself in less than a month.
finished it off with some [cooled] microwave oats
2) I’m currently eating with chopsticks in the dining hall because Asians are not really a minority at BU, and this dining hall has responded to that.
3) THIS Buzzfeed post about socially awkward introverts hits home like no other.
Do you think trying and crying rhyme because of me?
Now, if you know me in person, you might not immediately call me an introvert. I love talking to people and I even enjoy public speaking. That being said, it takes a great deal of energy for me to be social, and I’m usually quite content eating a meal by myself. (Not just because I was temporarily mortified after last year’s salad explosion.)
In addition to liking my “me time,” my introverted-ness is evident in my straight up AWKWARDNESS around people.
Sometimes, making good eye contact while talking with someone one-on-one is harder than looking into the sun.
When I contribute to a group conversation, I often doubt myself and make my voice progressively quieter and more high-pitched. And then I laugh like a teenage witch.
Sometimes I’m tempted to give up on saying hi to people in large groups.
Keeping up with conversation without falling into boring small talk can result in me making many sentences and gestures that make no sense at all.
But I’ve realized a few things:
a) If I let the awkward things come and go and pretend that I don’t feel my soul isn’t shriveling into itself, the awkwardness usually subsides more quickly.
b) The only way people can laugh WITH you is if you laugh at yourself.
c) Confidence really is the best thing you can wear.
d) Nobody cares that much about what I do or say. No one judges me harder than I judge myself.
e) I’m not alone in all this.
So that time I nearly smash my butt slipping down the stairs behind a girl I don’t know…
…or that time I didn’t know what to say at the end of a group prayer except, “and… thank you.”…
…or those multiple times when my brain and mouth do not collaborate properly, and. I. just. talklikethisbecausemywords.don’t.work…
…I’m just gonna own it.
In other news, I’m going to the gynecologist again early this morning. I think we’ll be going over test results from last week and possibly doing some other tests. Thank you all again for your support and prayers!
oatmeal with honey, cinnamon, banana, and peanut butter + eggs and turkey bacon
salad with feta and honey mustard dressing + chicken and rice
salad with tuna and couscous + chicken and sweet potatoes
fish cake with corn + salad + turkey burger with feta
vegan pumpkin bread a la mode
Yo gurl can EAT.
Hope you all have a fabulous Friday and a great weekend ahead!
So tell me:
Any awkward antics?
Any recent embarrassing stories you’re willing to share?
What is the best thing you ate this week? Definitely the pumpkin bread a la mode for me!