Today.

This blog post is not even about today, LOL.

In its purest cliché description, this post is about living in the moment. The theme stems from the plethora of changes — mental, intellectual, spiritual, physical (← idk, maybe less so), emotional — I’ve experienced in these past few months.

I’m the kind of person who takes her sweet time (I’m the most inefficient person I know) to try to do things “right,” whatever that means.

I face normal, everyday questions:

Should I study by myself or with classmates? 

Do I take the train or Uber or walk?

What should I pack for dinner? Should I buy dinner instead? 

Should I listen to Tori Kelly or Young the Giant in the 4 minutes I have before I arrive at my destination?

And then there are some bigger questions:

Why has God placed this person/friendship/relationship in my life?

What are my professional goals?

Where will I be a year from now?

What path do I need to take in order to best serve God for the rest of my life?

What is the right thing to do so that everyone is happy in the long run?

It is these latter questions that wrack my brain 5/7 days a week, because I don’t have a single dang clue what the answers are. I have a hard enough time coming to a decent answer for the everyday questions; the big questions just sort of debilitate me.

Of course, I’m sure nearly everyone feels the same way that I do about big questions regarding the future. How can anyone be sure about the future? But somehow I still forget that the only thing I can do is love and serve God today. Our words and actions today do indeed have ramifications for the future, but your mind, body and spirit can’t be anywhere but here today. For our lives are made up of days.

SO TODAY IS GOOD AND IMPORTANT AND CANNOT BE AVOIDED SO LIVE IT, DANG IT.

That yelling was mostly for myself. A self pep talk you could say. I didn’t mean to yell at you.

All that said, here are some moments with my family that I tried to live fully in the moments they were happening.

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Ben and I took our parents out to Hemingway’s for dinner as a Christmas present, since the best gift we can really give to each other at this point in our lives is quality time and food. I got {absurdly expensive} crab cakes, which were delightful with the coconut grits underneath and perfectly cooked asparagus on top.

The rosemary sourdough rolls at the start were also fantastic, but they were no cheese biscuits (the complimentary bread that was served when we first went to the restaurant three years ago). RIP cheese biscuits. I will dream about thee forever.

We all split calamari as an appetizer and key lime pie for dessert as well. Both hit all the right spots.

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I’ve been peddle boating with Madre! There have been alligator sightings in the lake in the past, so I’m always a little on edge about that, but thus far we have not been eaten.

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On Wednesday morning, Madre, Ben and I (Pop was working from home — man of the year) went to Keke’s Breakfast Cafe for…breakfast, naturally. It’s apparently extremely popular, so we worked up an appetite and waited approximately 25 minutes for a table. ‘Twas worth it though because just LOOK at the food.

Ben got the apple cinnamon stuffed French toast with home fries and sausage; Mom got regular French toast with eggs and sausage; and I got the largest blueberry pancake in the world with eggs and {bomb} bacon.

^^^True story. I ordered two pancakes at first, but then the waiter asked, “Are you sure?? Have you seen the size of our pancakes? If I eat two then I pass out.”

In my head at first I thought, “You don’t even know me.” But then I was like #humility and #dontbegreedy, so I ordered one pancake instead. Good thing, because the pancake was like a literal 9-inch cake in height and diameter, guys. I had to take 1/3 of it home. I NEVER LEAVE PANCAKES BEHIND USUALLY.

But it was a large, high-quality pancake. So fluffy and buttery. High recommend. Butter and Aunt Jemima required.

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^^^Random: Saw this at Publix. This is bad. I hate this headline, and I don’t hate many things. If you lose 10 lbs in 48 hours, something is WRONG.

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To end on a positive note though, God is good all the time.

And as You speak
A hundred billion creatures catch Your breath
Evolving in pursuit of what You said
If it all reveals Your nature so will I
I can see Your heart in everything You say
Every painted sky
A canvas of Your grace
If creation still obeys You so will I

— “So Will I” by Hillsong United

(if you wanna hear something beautiful today, listen to ^^this song, especially the Tori Kelly version)

Enjoy today 🙂

So tell me:

Thoughts about living today.

Waffles, French toast, or pancakes?

What is something ridiculous you’ve seen recently?

 

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My One Word for 2014: Now

Guess what?! I woke up at 9:30 AM this morning! After sleeping in until noon for the past week, I decided to try to get my act together so that I won’t be kicking myself in the behind once school rolls around (which is Thursday….mehh). I know 9:30 AM is like lunchtime for some of you early risers, but that was bright and early for me today! 

Breakfast

I took my sweet time reading through some bloggers’ last posts of 2013 while I ate a yummy breakfast. I cracked open a new jar of TJs sunflower seed butter (isn’t that just a great feeling?) and smeared some of that on a piece of nut and seed toast from The Kneaded Bread. I had another mini slice with some cherry butter toffee peanut butter. Greek yogurt with half a banana on the side!

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I could just swim in it.

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Snack

My mom recently bought some pre-made Phillip’s crab cakes from Costco and she warmed them up in the oven as part of her lunch, so I tried half of one. They’re tasty, but nothing could ever compare to the amazingness of freshly made crab cakes.

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I also just finished cooking up my favorite veggie:

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I like ’em dark and steamy.

My mom and I love pan roasting brussels sprouts in coconut oil and then tossing them in sea salt and pepper at the end! Delicious.

My One Word

I recently read posts by Cori, Emily, and Lindsay about their one word for the New Year, which is basically a single word that encompasses your goals and aspirations for the coming year. I love that the idea is so simple, yet can be made so profound as you live your life. You can check the My One Word website for further details!

The one word of some other bloggers include:

  • Fearless  (Cori)
  • Nourish  (Emily)
  • Open (Lindsay)

These are all wonderful words that I also hope to live by in the coming year. But I have a word in mind that I believe applies perfectly to what I need in my life at this moment:

now 2014

Now is what I have chosen to be my word for 2014. I have realized in this past year especially that I am often focusing a great deal of my energy on worries from the past or events in the future. Not only do I over-think those things, but I even put pressure on myself to make those things as perfect as possible. God has taught me through blogging, insomnia, the slow down challenge, and my loved ones that I need to stop holding onto things that I cannot control and that perfection doesn’t exist.

I’m tired of becoming anxious. And although it’s not going to be easy to just let my anxiety go at times, I’m going to try to appreciate now. God will take me every step of the way.

So here’s to 2014! A year in which I hope to notice the little, simple joys in every day life, cherish every moment with my loved ones, smile more, and find the silver lining in every situation.

I hope you all have a great last day of 2013, and a healthy, happy New Year!

So tell me:

Do you have one word for the new year?

Don’t you love opening a new jar of nut/seed butter?

How do you prepare your brussels sprouts?