He is risen!! He is risen indeed!
Happy Easter, friends! ♥︎
Phew, wow, I cannot tell you what’s going on inside of me right now, because you would have to physically shut me up (or pry my fingers from the keyboard in this case). Joy, gratitude, stress, fullness, tiredness.
Last week was a stressful week, but powering through the stress made the Holy Triduum and Easter all the sweeter.
*Disclaimer: These next few paragraphs include content relating to fasting and restriction. Please take caution ♥︎ Those with mental disorders (including during recovery from eating disorders) are not required to fast from food.
In light of Good Friday (the day we commemorate Jesus’ death), I fasted from Thursday night until Saturday (not a full fast, just less food than usual). Obviously, it was challenging. The point of fasting in the Catholic Church is to feel hunger and weakness as our Lord did in His time of suffering for our sins, and to unite our (minor) sufferings with His.
When I fasted for the first time last year, I was in a more delicate place regarding my relationship with food. I was a lot more worrisome about making sure that I was eating enough but not more than I was supposed to. This year, fasting was 100% sacrifice mode for me. You don’t have to tell me twice to eat enough at this point in my life, so I didn’t have to worry about mixing up restriction with fasting at all.
Although sacrifice is involved, we’re encouraged to be smart with fasting. I had a three hour class and then a campus tour on Friday, so I made sure I had just enough energy to get through those things. Fasting should not cause you to be utterly incapacitated nor make you feel super lightheaded/nauseated.
The most significant thing I noticed while fasting this year was that it was freeing to feel that hungry yet know that my hunger pangs were volitional not for restriction but for sacrifice. It empowers me to be okay with being very hungry sometimes, because I know the hunger doesn’t have to be connected to the intention of losing weight. Does that make sense?
Anyway, I was planning on doing a quasi-fast on Saturday, but I went out to lunch with my parents and family friends, and this happened:
I couldn’t be rude and say no to their generosity and kindness….
I also took— not one— but two naps on Saturday. They were both 20 minutes, so I don’t feel too bad.
The weather cleared up nicely by late afternoon, and I hadn’t moved and grooved in a while, so I did this workout (one of my favorites!) by the river.
For whatever reason, I think my body produces a HECK of a lot of gas after I eat a big, fatty meal and then work out later that day. ‘Cause my GI tract was hurtin’ from after I worked out until much later that night. (It felt just like this day last summer!) The gas just stays inside of me and it feels like pins and needles are poking me from the inside out.
TMI, but welcome to the blog.
Saturday night involved the coolest Mass of the year—the Easter Vigil! Followed up by a late night Easter celebration, which commenced the FEASTING. It was also fun to wear makeup again 🙂
I went to bed at 3 AM, haha. I got 6 hours of sleep that night, and now I’m typing this at midnight the night after. I’m so prudent with my life decisions.
Easter Sunday started with a 30 minute walk to brunch with the family + family friends!
THIS PLACE. Dreams. Check it:
apple donut holes for appetizer, because Easter
cast iron skillet cornbread with honey butter *moment of silence*
my entree: cornmeal crusted cod + mango salsa slaw sandwich on brioche
also shared some of my mom’s “Breakfast Club” waffle sandwich (triple decker with fried chicken and fried egg + syrup for dipping)
Heart-stopping on so many levels. It was so wonderful seeing my family again too. Thank you for making the trip up here, Madre and Pop!
Then I went back to the dorm to do some homework (blah) before hanging out with friends from the Catholic Center and eating MORE.
It looks like it was warm outside, but it wasn’t. We sucked it up #ForThePics.
What a blessed day. I am at a loss for words except “Alleluia!”
The rest of the day involved me rushing to get in an assignment due at 5pm, mobile soup kitchen with my inspirational friends, and late dinner.
spinach artichoke dip to share (we all burned the roofs of our mouths devouring this)
arugula salad with golden raisins, candied walnuts, blue cheese, red onions, and Italian herb vinaigrette
my aunt’s homemade zucchini bread with almond butter
Plus another cookie and more almond butter.
Thank you, family. Thank you, friends. Thank YOU for reading this and supporting me so lovingly. Thank you, Lord for your Death and Resurrection and Love beyond imagination.
Hope you all have a splendid Easter week!
So tell me:
Three things you did this weekend!
The best thing you ate this weekend!
Do you have any insights on fasting/feeling very hungry after having experienced an eating disorder?