On the Verge of Internet Addiction?

Thoughts are flooding my mind like:

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…but first, let’s do some happy small talk!

The temperature in the mornings has been just lovely. A little chilly to some, but I love me some light sweater weather.

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After breakfast, Mass, and a little morning nap (I start work at 12 on Mondays), I took my moves and grooves outside, naturally.

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banana bread baked oatmeal with cinnamon raisin peanut butter + glass o’ {Lactaid} milk

THIS WAS HARD:

  • 1 mile run
  • 100 burpees
  • 100 double unders
  • 1 mile run

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I couldn’t tell you which part was the hardest, but I can tell you that all I could think of on that last mile was, “Keep chugging away. Don’t stop.” Even though I probably could have walked faster than I was running at some points (thanks, hills).

Here’s me trying to smile at the end.

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But I’m proud of myself! I hardly ever run, and I went ahead and did two miles of it in a workout.

Today I might go for a walk or do my favorite 18 minute plank workout. Either way, my legs need a break.

So last night…

I was still feeling funky and down, but I knew that it wasn’t just because of the weekend’s events. I couldn’t really pinpoint why I was feeling so unsettled and just… off.

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part of yesterday’s lunch: salad with cherry tomatoes, dried cranberries, slivered almonds, and sliced smoked duck breast (from the farmers’ market)

Granted, I was pretty wiped out, and fatigue always brings me down. But Pop noticed at the dinner table that something was up.

“I’m fine.” ← Fortunately, Pop knows the true meaning of those words.

I don’t usually have qualms about telling my parents how I feel, but truthfully, I myself didn’t really know what was going on. However, when Pop entered my room (as I wiped a single tear from my eye), I just talked it out, discovering what exactly was bothering me.

The main thing is the internet. I just felt exhausted and more stressed with the internet lately— social media and even blogging. It’s not that I don’t enjoy keeping up with people and blogging (hello, here I am right now), but I feel a little bit enslaved to it at times.

I gotta check Instagram. *scrolls mindlessly and finds an account to “stalk”*

I need to do one thing on Facebook. *scrolls mindlessly and watches at least five of those Tasty videos*

I’ll take this time to read a couple blogs. *goes through the hundreds of unread blog posts*

I’ll check this person’s Snapchat story. *goes through everyone’s story* ← Okay, Snapchat made the stories continuous with one another, which is like a black hole.

I’ve been talking about social media’s toxicity in several different blog posts recently, but I still have not made too much of a change. I clicked on this article called “10 Things You May Not Know About Anxiety Disorder” via Arman’s Coffee Talk post yesterday (another thing: clicking on links), and one thing is that  “People who suffer from gambling or internet addictions are more likely to also have anxiety disorder.”

Do I think I have a legit internet addiction? No. However, I think I could be heading towards one at this rate. Internet doesn’t interfere with my daily work life or anything, but once I don’t have responsibilities, I feel like I can’t get away from it. There’s always something to do/see/like/comment/post on my phone or laptop.

Pop offered some good advice about practical ways to combat this sub-internet-addiction. I also added some strategies myself:

  • Unfollow people on Facebook and Instagram. I don’t need to be following every friend and every fitness junkie/foodie out there. Clean up the feed.
  • Limit yourself to just “liking” things, without feeling like you need to comment.
  • Read a select few blogs.
  • Read actual books more (shoutout to school teachers).
  • Before touching any piece of technology, make a list of what you intend to do when you’re on the internet. Stick to that list. Go in with intention.

This week is all about humility and self-reflection, ain’t it?

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I just finished the best overnight oats I’ve had in a while 

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It’s not fun knowing that I have a disorder-prone mind. It’s not easy to share weakness. But acknowledging my weakness is one way that God helps me knock down my pride and build me up in a way that is more beautiful than before. And vulnerability is the best way to connect to others!

#BeMoreHuman ← that’s a Reebok hashtag, but it works here.

(p.s. Yesterday, I said that I would talk about body image stuff today, but that’s not on my heart right now, so I changed the topic. In short, just know that you are so much more than your outward beauty!!! LIFE is so much more than outward beauty.)

Go get ’em, friends.

Comment or don’t comment. I’d love to hear your thoughts, but you can also just shut down your computer/phone and go on with your day 🙂

Being Careful With So Much Free Time + Recent Eats

Remember Facebook/AIM/Twitter statuses like this?

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Translation: “Someone hit me up, I’m bored as !@#$.”

For the record, I never posted statuses like this, mostly because “af” was a little too rebellious for me. I did post photos like this though…

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ONLY five years ago!?

…which are 100x worse in my opinion. This is NETC, the Italian class “pet”. I’m in physical pain looking at this/thinking about the fact that I posted this on Facebook.

Anyway, I’ve been trying not to fall into that “bored af” mode. I’m keeping busy by meeting up with friends, catching up on blog stuff, chores, errands, exercise, and reading. My planner is really helping me stay accountable for daily tasks.

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That being said, I’d be lying if I said I’m not looking for things to do sometimes. Living in this age, when I’m looking for things to do, I almost robotically turn to social media. It pains me to say that I don’t turn to a good book or calling a friend or doing something else productive, but it’s true. I open up Facebook or Instagram.

Katherine from The Peanut Butter Lover just posted an incredible reflection on how subconscious scrolling is the norm these days. I am most definitely in that camp, and as hard as I strive to be more present (said everyone, always), I can’t help but fall into the trap of the hypnotic newsfeed, especially when I’m not as busy like I am during school.

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Besides the problem of not being present, I have to be careful with how much time I spend looking at fitness accounts on Instagram. I’ve recently found myself watching minutes, half-hours, whole hours browsing various fitness accounts.

Please let me be clear. I only enjoy following fitness accounts that are uplifting, genuinely inspiring, and balanced (for example, @kaisafit, @shaunaharrison, and @fitphotographermom). When I’m spending time on such accounts, I’m not comparing my body to theirs or thinking about how I can burn more calories. If I was, I would certainly express that (honesty is the best policy on Moves and Grooves after all). I’m more so thinking things like, “How can I get to where they are? What exercises do I have to do to achieve that? Should I do that today even though I’m sore? I want to be that strong too.”

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Even though my mind is in a much healthier place when I’m looking at social media these days, I still need to be wary of the comparison trap. I have come a long way throughout recovery, and the major lesson I’ve learned is that I don’t need to be her. I know this, but I need to remind myself of it often.

I do believe that I can find fitness inspiration without disordered thinking, but I just have to be careful not to become so immersed in it. I have an obsessive personality, so I need to use my extra free time prudently while I’m on break.


Now that we’ve had a nice heart to heart (or, my heart to yours…), let’s look at some of the good eats from this week!

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A classic: toast, pb, banana, cinnamon + glass o’ milk

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spaghetti squash, tomato basil sauce, and grilled Italian chicken (carbs were had before and after :))

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new favorite: Kylie’s simple paleo pancake with peanut butter, Greek yogurt, cinnamon + glass o’ milk

I met up with my dear friend Fiona (from college) on Monday. We went to the outlet mall, ate some Shake Shack, and had our own heart to heart conversations. She’s studying abroad this coming semester, so I’m gonna miss her like crazy!

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“Concrete” at Shake Shack. I got vanilla frozen custard with strawberry puree and “crispy crunchies”.

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chicken, avocado, mixed greens, colby jack cheese, and sriracha sandwich to go

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good ol’ overnight oats topped with granola

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avocado, egg, cheese, sriracha sandwich + salad with homemade honey mustard dressing

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clementines are off the CHAIN right now

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strawberries ‘n’ cream protein smoothie

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this was so good: quinoa, honey balsamic chicken, and roasted broccoli

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dried figs with Greek yogurt!!! bringing back the good stuff

Additionally, I’ve been eating leftover cookies that overfloweth in our refrigerator and caramel popcorn that my aunt gave us. It’s a hard life, eh?

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my aunt’s delicious oatmeal fruit cookie mini muffins

Hope you all have a great day! I mean it.

So tell me: 

What do you find yourself doing if you have too much free time?

Did you post embarrassing things on social media in your younger days?

Are you still eating leftover holiday treats? “New Year, new you” is not a thing here.

Have you tried any delicious recipes recently? I’m thinking that honey balsamic chicken and roasted broccoli will be regular recipes for us!

Behind the Scenes #8: Twitter Fever

Good morning!

It’s been a couple weeks since I’ve joined Amanda’s Thinking Out Loud linkup, so I’m more than glad to be joining it this week!

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1. Today is our first full day of school this week. It’s weird. As fun as it is to stay at home all day, I kind of want to get back into a routine, especially since our winter break is in less than two weeks. If we keep having snow days, there will be no sense of differentiation and sheer joy once break comes around, ya know?

2. I never used to like Twitter because it stressed me out. All I saw were these random thoughts to absorb (….like this post….), and I just never cared for it that much. Up until 3.5 days ago, I really only used Twitter as a means to share my own blog posts or others’ blog posts. However, if you follow me on Twitter, you may have noticed that I’ve stepped up my game.

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I don’t know what got to me but the Twitter fever is gettin’ real. Or I’m gettin’ obnoxious. It’s guatever either way.

3. Staying on the topic of social media— Facebook users, do you love those new story videos like I do?? I mean, I just clicked on the link and then there was a cute little video that summed up some of my favorite pictures and statuses on Facebook. Honestly, I almost cried when I was watching my friend’s video. The music, the pictures, and the nostalgia was all too sweet to handle. I’m not sensitive or anything. Nice job, Mark Z.!

4. I’m wearing shorts right now (while also wearing a sweatshirt), which shows that I want it to be spring pretty badly apparently. Oh, and Dad just asked me to go outside to get the mail…I’m up for the challenge. (Just kidding, he went to go get it before me. Thanks for saving my legs from freezing, pa!)

5. If you’re a fan of witty and funny things, I highly recommend this blog called I Think in Comics. The author is actually my brother’s friend from Northeastern University, so college students would especially appreciate her humor. I literally laugh out loud every time I read her posts. She is such a talented cartoonist. She’s also Asian, and Asians rule.

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6. I had my first kale salad ever yesterday, and it was pretty good! I don’t mind the bitter flavor like some others might, so I ate it raw. I just massaged in some maple dijon dressing and added salmon and brussels sprouts. It’s definitely more of a jaw workout when eating kale rather than spinach (maybe I needed to massage it more), but I hope to experiment a little more with the most famous green in the HLB world.

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Buttered parmesan potato bread on the side 😀

7. I am currently obsessed with this song by The Jakes (aka former Young the Giant). Thanks to my friend Daliza for introducing this ear candy to me. 😉

8. I wish scones could keep longer, but the truth is that they get crusty and dry if not eaten the day they’re made. Warming them up in a damp paper towel helps a wee bit, but they’re still not to their highest scone potential.

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9. Would anyone happen to know a possible cause for a grinding shoulder joint? That sounds really nasty, but for the longest time, my left shoulder has not only been tight, but whenever I roll it or circle my arm, there is a grinding sensation (and sound). Like, there’s no lubrication for the joint. It doesn’t really hurt though, and my right shoulder is fine. All I know is that it hurts when I sleep on my left side (which my body just loves to do while I’m sleeping). I haven’t been lifting weights recently either, but the grinding did start before I stopped lifting.

According to Google, this problem may result in not being able to move my shoulder ever again. Cooooool. I feel like Jo in that every Google diagnosis I find makes me think my body is falling apart.

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10. Andddd you probably don’t care about my shoulder issues. That’s okay, because I obviously didn’t care enough to bring it up until several months after the problem started….I hope you all have a wonderful day! Stay safe and warm (watch out for the black ice)!

So tell me:

Do you like using Twitter?

Are you a fan of kale?

Do you have any similar joint issues? Any idea why my shoulder is grinding?