It’s been a funky weekend.
My mood is currently a slurry of the following:
Upset, confused, uneasy, and heartbroken by the shootings (Christina Grimmie + mass shooting at Pulse) in Orlando this weekend.
Sometimes God allows terrible things to happen in your life and you don’t know why. But that doesn’t mean you should stop trusting Him.
— Christina Grimmie (@TheRealGrimmie) February 21, 2013
I’m having a hard time just typing this blog post, because I’m watching several videos, reading tweets/statuses/articles, and just grappling with the whole situation and with the state of the world. May God be merciful to all, and may He grant rest to the souls of those who died and console their loved ones.
Friends, keep loving more deeply every day. Reflect on your purpose in this world. I don’t mean to be preachy right now, but when it comes to life and death, it’s important to ask yourself: What if my life on earth ended today?
Enraged, saddened, yet awe-inspired by the powerful letter the Stanford rape victim read aloud to her attacker.
Unsure if cutting down on dairy is helping my tummy troubles. I’m currently drinking Lactaid milk (surprisingly, it’s exceptionally tasty milk) and avoiding Greek yogurt and cheese. I think I feel better with less Greek yogurt in particular (*tear*).
the day before my mom picked up some Lactaid // carbs+pb isn’t the same without a glass o’ milk
leftover green banana pancakes + banana cream sauce + glass o’ Lactaid (← doesn’t have the same ring to it)
overnight oats made without Greek yogurt but with extra Lactaid milk, chia seeds, and half a scoop of vanilla protein powder — not bad!
classic banana egg white oats (video tutorial coming soon!)
baked banana bread oatmeal for this week’s breakfasts
I’m also unsure because I’m weak. I had a tiny bit of ice cream Saturday night with our leftover apple strudel from the farmers’ market 🙂 And I had a few cheesy jalapeño Popcorners yesterday.
I didn’t keel over or anything though, so it’s all good.
Another likely culprit is definitely stress. I don’t notice my stress, but I think my body/mind has objectively been stressed these past few weeks.
All that being said…
I’m ashamed and disappointed in myself. Honesty is the best policy. I feel ashamed that maybe my tummy troubles were actually coming from a few too many days of eating until I was stuffed, even if it was just a bunch of vegetables.
I have definitely not been binging by any means, but I do know that I sometimes stress eat and/or eat too quickly when I’m stressed. I was struck by the possibility that maybe my insides haven’t been cooperating because I just haven’t been too kind to them in regards to the volume I eat.
So I’ve been more aware of my stomach cues (without worrying about calories or anything), which (DUH) has been helping me feel more comfortable. I’m tempted to beat myself up about my recent eating habits, but I know that will just do me a disservice. Evaluate, learn, make the changes, and move on.
Somewhat off topic: Lunches these days have been all about eggs, which I find are easy on my stomach.
two egg omelet with greens and onions + cherry tomatoes + avocado toast
avocado toast with sunny egg and sriracha (among other things) for lunch on Saturday
delicious bowl of quinoa, roasted broccoli, sautéed greens, onions, cherry tomatoes, chorizo + sunny egg + sriracha added post-pic
Thankful that my body can move and exercise. I always try to be, but I’ve had to especially remind myself to be thankful this weekend because of some recent body image issues that I’ll talk more about tomorrow.
Mom and I have been doing 7 minute workouts and Pilates together. So wonderful to move and groove with Madre.
Working at a rehabilitation hospital has also done wonders for my perspective on physical ability, movement, and health.
scene at lunch break
Saturday’s workout was a doozy! 4 rounds for time:
- 10 burpee tuck jumps
- 20 crazy Russian twists (10 each side, 15#)
- 30 side jump lunges
- 40 air squats with side leg lift
- 50 mountain climbers
HUSTLED on those last squats and mountain climbers when I saw that I could finish at 20 minutes
I did this yoga video yesterday, since everything was sore and my body had been craving good, organ-nourishing twists.
Happy that I get to spend quality time with my parents on the weekends. We went out for sushi on Saturday night after Mass, followed by an evening walk.
Mom and Pop’s sashimi for two
cutest soy sauce dish
my order: “Soho roll” (tuna, salmon, yellowtail, avocado, rice, roe, wrapped in soybean paper) + eel cucumber roll
Ain’t nothing like gooooooood sushi.
Excited for friends and family in their adventures and endeavors. It’s so cool to see loved ones explore the world, learn, grow, and allow God to work through them.
So there’s a lot happening in the head and the heart right now. A lot of it is growing pain, I think, which is encouraging and comforting. God is good, always.
I’m sorry if this post seems like a big, negative smash on your Monday, but that’s not my intent. This is just a reminder to myself and to all who read this that we need to support and uplift one another. Joy, beauty, heroism, and love exist, and it starts with you.
So tell me:
What are your current moods?
Have you ever gone through periods of “meh” eating habits, even if you have a healthy mindset?
What are you thankful for today?
What is the best thing you did this weekend? Mass + dinner and walk with the parents ♥︎