When You’re Feeling Off + Life Lately

It’s finally warm!

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Thank the Lord. It got up to a steamy 76*F on Tuesday!

HI. It’s been pretty quiet on Moves and Grooves lately, but it’s been a busy and weird couple of weeks. The weirdness was mostly attributed to me feeling very “off” in my faith life — prayer wasn’t the easiest, and I felt a lot of confusion, frustration, and guilt over some things in my life.

It’s not something I haven’t experienced before, but it’s always disorienting. However, I’ve learned to not depend on feelings or be driven by them all the time. This apples not only to matters of faith, but also matters of recovery, school, life in general. It makes sense (e.g. just because you don’t feel like sharing cake with your friend doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t), but feelings can be LOUD, so it’s good to remind ourselves that feelings are just feelings. We often need to follow what we know instead.

Know that God does not speak through confusion.

Know that God is infinitely loving and merciful.

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I’m not usually a pinterest quote person, but this Bible verse made it to my phone lock screen this week

And with God, every trial just yields more wisdom and peace. Holy Week has helped too! This year, it has been profound yet beautifully simple, and now we are all so ready for Easter 🙂

Let’s catch up though!! So much has been happening.

I went to my second spin class ever at Cyc with Christina (@foodietunes) last Wednesday. Once again, Sarah Gaines, founder of Fit University, taught the class and kicked. my. BUTT. My last spin/Cyc class was last year during Sarah’s first “tribe ride”!

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Christina texted me the night before:

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And so I dragged my butt out of bed to move my legs faster than they ever do, but I still couldn’t keep up with Sarah.

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I had squatted heavy for the first time in a long time THREE days before this class, and my quads were still crying by the warmup.

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Christina: “Can we pick you up?” // Sarah: “Not up here.”

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Thank you so much, Sarah, for a great class and for being an all-around inspirational gal!

After the Cyc class, I stopped by Whole Foods to get some yogurt, and this little fella was patiently waiting outside.

Corgis are my favorite kind of dog. They’re awkward, cute, and loyal. We need more men like that in the world.

Here are a couple solid dining hall meals I’ve eaten:

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breaded fish with seasoned rice and green beans

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empanadas on Latin night + salad

And I’ve been cookin’ up some fine things in the apartment as well!

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(from three weeks ago!) the last of the chicken + beans from the bomb enchiladas I made with cheese, avocado, and roasted brussels sprouts

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meatballs (actually, just mini muffin versions of this meatloaf), brown rice, cheese, and roasted paprika asparagus

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classics with a side of anatomy

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tomato, basil, feta, pepper, and olive oil

Last Sunday, Megan and I hosted “Assisi Night” for our Catholic friends. Essentially, it was an even that we made up because we’ve been obsessed with Assisi ever since we visited during our break while studying abroad. So we invited all our friends to hang out with us for an Italian food potluck, a movie about St. Francis and St. Clare, and good ol’ fellowship.

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the oddly large “T” is actually a tau sign, symbolic of the Franciscan order

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Dinner was complete with salad, caprese, focaccia, several kinds of pasta, and many desserts. Megan and I cooked most of it, but our friends came through with lots of delicious foods as well!

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this focaccia disappeared before the event started

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my attempt at cacio e pepe

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‘Twas such a fun night!!

Sunsets have been magnificent this week thanks to the clear blue skies.

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I wish I could go to a remote place so I could see stars too! (I’m asking for a lot, I’m sorry. I am very grateful for these sunsets.)

Exams, papers, projects, summer planning, etc. is all happening still. It’s a good kind of chaos.

I hope you all have a blessed Easter or just a joyful weekend! Eat lots of carbs for with me!

So tell me:

Do you ever have to ignore your feelings and go with what you know?

Two fun things you’ve done recently.

What are you doing this weekend!Easter and Marathon Monday, baby!

 

Not Quite Back to Dining Hall Food

I unintentionally squandered my unlimited meal plan yesterday.

I didn’t eat a single meal in the dining hall. I did, however, use my unlimited swipe-ability without guilt to pick up some fruit as a snack.

Yesterday was our last hurrah before the start of classes, and I’m glad to say that it was both a productive and fun day (without any heart palpitations, thank God).

I felt like a spring chicken after sleeping in and doing a bit of yoga and foam rolling in the morning. Once I was finished with all that, it was 10AM, so a quick dorm breakfast felt like the way to go.

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peanut butter + vanilla protein + banana on Dave’s killer bread

Followed by some human physiology reading, Jesus loving (Mass), and then more food. The admissions office graciously hosted a welcome back BBQ for all the admissions ambassadors (tour guides, etc.), complete with burgers, dogs, cookies, and sunshine.

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there’s a big burger patty in there somewhere

I was kinda antisocial at the BBQ, but I didn’t mean to be. I just needed to sit down and eat my burger with two hands, which meant that I had to remove myself from all the people standing and talking. In reality I was doing everyone a favor by not talking to them with lettuce in my teeth and mustard on my cheeks.

Domestic dorm duties beckoned me, so I went back to the dorm to do laundry and tub scrubbing.

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fueled by some zucchini bread that my wonderful roommate baked

My roommates told me not to clean the bathroom since it’s only been a week, but I rebelled and cleaned it anyway. Mold preys quickly.

And I prey on peanut butter even more quickly.

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My accidental homage to “I ♥ NY (aka The Big Apple)” 😉

I passed more time with blogging, folding laundry, and getting distracted by Tori Kelly’s VMA performance before leaving for the Catholic Center’s trip to the North End!

This week for me is filled with the BU Catholic Center’s First Week events, which is a time for any and all returning students and new students to hang out, meet friends, and partake in a merry time.

Day one was a scavenger hunt with tasks such as proposing to a stranger (who happens to look like Morgan Freeman).

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Day two was a trip to Quincy Market and the North End of Boston, which is like a more quaint version of NYC’s Little Italy.

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gyro plate with rice pilaf and salad from Quincy Market

HOUSED THIS. I told Rachel, “It scares me and thrills me that half of this meat is fat.”

Afterwards we walked to Mike’s Pastry in the North End, where our bomb-dig priest generously bought forty cannoli(s?) for the group.

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best cannoli I ever did eat // no chocolate chips 😀

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back to the endless selfies of college

Beautiful place and weather with beautiful people, eating beautiful food, and celebrating a beautiful Lord.

The day ended with deep thoughts/girl talk in my friends’ dorm room and typing up this blog post. Plus a shower, because hygiene is good.

P.S. I’m going to a modern dance class today, and I haven’t danced in forever, but I’m SO STOKED.

Wishing you all a beautiful day!

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So tell me:

Do you get self-conscious eating around people? I don’t usually, but when it comes to things with big leaves, I must hide my face.

Have you ever tried a cannoli?

Are you scrupulous about cleaning the bathroom like I am?

Recharged

Beautiful people of the earth, how are you?

Yes, I guess you could say I had a freaking-fantastic-wonderful-awesome time on retreat in Maine this weekend! Although we always experience a Jesus “high” during and right after retreat, the point of the retreat was to equip and instruct us on how to go out and proclaim our faith through our daily lives— through the highest of highs and lowest of lows. Our speaker for this retreat, Michael Lavigne (he has a blog!), called it “the art of living.” Dig it.

The weekend was packed with delicious food made by the most amazing kitchen team, lots of laughs, contemplation, community, and of course, deep conversations with Christ through prayer. I cannot put into words how much I enjoy retreat and love Jesus.

That being said, we’re back at school and work awaits. It’s going to be a loooong week, so if I don’t post again this week, please forgive me. Life is rolling faster than I can keep up sometimes!

Here are some scenes from the weekend:

Rachel’s birthday was on Friday, but since we left for retreat on Friday night, we celebrated on Thursday night at a lovely little Mexican restaurant. I ordered a beef taco and fish taco, and my soul was happy.

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FYI— bottom left pic is us trying to imitate the statues behind us. In case you were wondering what we’re doing.

Several wonderful people kept us {more than} well-nourished during retreat. French toast, chili, CHEESE BISCUITS OMG, trifles, pesto pasta, carrot soup… They put the dining halls to utter shame.

Carbs were my best friend this weekend and I am so okay with that.

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P.S. they also had peanut butter ♥ 

Last but not least, the people with whom I spent the weekend are truly a gift from God. My friends here, there, and everywhere (I’m talking to all you readers out there!) are constantly inspiring and humbling me. Thanks so much.

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From far away, it looks like we have mustaches on our shirts. They’re not mustaches.

Not gonna lie, I feel slightly anxious for the week ahead because of all the work and studying that needs to get done, but the retreat has certainly recharged me and prepared me to take on each day the Lord gives us.

Oh! I cannot forget to address the fact that this week is National Eating Disorders Awareness (NEDA) Week. Gah, now I definitely want to try to put up a post regarding that. Tonight I will actually be speaking at the BU Nutrition Club’s NEDA lecture and discussion, where I will be giving my personal account of my past eating disorder following a lecture by Jennifer Culbert, RD, LDN. Pray for us!

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Hopefully, I will be back later this week to recap my talk that I will be giving tonight, as well as discuss more about eating disorder awareness. It’s something that I am passionate about, and my recovery journey is what led me to create this blog. So stay tuned!

You’re beautiful. Catch ya later, kids.

So tell me:

What are three things that made you smile this weekend? 

Cut Down the Time-Wasting

Officially done with classes this semester, y’all!

Last night my friends and I celebrated at the Catholic center (I know, I’m there 99% of the time) with a fun Christmas party. There were cookies, ugly sweaters, and gingerbread “houses.” ‘Twas a perfect way to end the semester before we dug into studying for finals!

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All the freshmen at the party. Check out my friend Albert in the middle with all us ladies. Player.

Before I enjoyed a multitude of cookies and snacks at the party, I ate some other delicious and more nutritious things earlier in the day. Breakfast was a classic pb-banana-honey oatmeal with scrambled eggs.

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I also ate an interesting yet tasty lunch with my friend, Lauren. We tried this vegan quinoa/mushroom Shepherd’s pie with cranberry mint sauce, and I was a fan! It was definitely no comfort food, but it was a cool alternative since “Veggie Galaxy” was at the dining hall as the guest chef of the day.

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Story time: I dropped my first plate of this all over the floor of the dining hall as we were walking back to our table because I’m clumsy and ridiculous. The picture above is take two. I like how my food just tends to fling everywhere.

Dinner also hit the spot, most likely because it involved copious amounts of dairy (for which I expressed my love yesterday) in the form of cheese. I had a whole wheat, chicken, cheese, and veggie quesadilla, as well as a little mac and cheese because it was baked and fresh out of the oven…

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Mmm mmm good.

Cutting Down the Time-Wasting

Now that finals are in less than a week, I need to FOCUS. I’m pretty good at managing my time, but there are also days where I’ll be doing work and then I’ll get “a little” distracted multiple times throughout the day. Before I know it, I’ve accumulated 1-2 hours of nothingness.

I’m all for slowing down and treating yourself in little ways every single day, but it’s easy to let little distractions snowball into major procrastination. Thus, as we approach finals week, here are some things to which I want to commit so that I can maximize productivity!

1) The ‘gram has got to go (at least during the day).

Instagram is my number one pitfall of doom. Tapping on the little icon on my phone to “just check a few posts” turns into a good 30 minutes of scrolling since I follow so many people. Once I start, I can’t stop.

2) Work out, but don’t over-think it.

I often spend way too much time deciding on what kind of workout I want to do some days. I scroll through workouts that I’ve saved on my phone, I consider making up my own workout, and I try to think of logistics as to when I’ll go to the gym. Sometimes I feel like I need to do “the right” workout, so I spend so much time thinking about what will be the most effective/intense/not intense.

I’m not necessarily proud of this fact that I over-think working out, so I want to work on just choosing a workout and being grateful for any sort of movement and exercise that I can get during the day.

3) Don’t listen to music while I study.

I’ve been in denial, but I know that I do not focus as well when I’m listening to music as I work.

4) Set time intervals for studying.

I’m a daydreamer when I am sitting and studying by myself for too long. If I set a timer for 30-60 minute intervals of focused studying and then 10-15 minutes of break time (NOT on my phone though), I can help myself stay engaged yet sane.

5) Go to places where I know I will not be distracted.

Sometimes I just want to study in my room, but I know I get distracted there because of friends coming in to talk and my bed being so close… So I want to make the effort to go to certain study places where I know I am most productive. That will allow me to walk more too!

Alright, I am kind of late for psychology review, so I’ll catch ya later. Best of luck to all my fellow college students on their finals!

Have a fantastic day!

So tell me:

What are some things you do that help cut down time-wasting?

What is your biggest productivity-sucker?

Instagram and music for me!

Do you have an ugly Christmas sweater? 

Notes on College {Chapter 2}

Good morning, folks!

Sooo I didn’t actually get to pre-schedule any posts this weekend and I greatly apologize. Life happened, and life is still happening, but I’m squeezing in this post because I love blogging and all of you and…yay!

I’m excited for the events that are happening this week, especially because there’s a weekend retreat to New Hampshire with the Catholic center coming up! Only an essay, lab, a few assignments, and a psych test to power through until then. Meep.

I haven’t really updated you all on what went on last week, so I’m going to recap some highlights in the style of notes again! Second edition = “Chapter 2.” #nerd

Academics

  • Flash cards— easy and efficient for studying; pain in the butt to make. If this is the stack I have for only two chapters, I’m going to need a whole forest to sustain my studying needs for the rest of the year.

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Social Life

  • I attended the first Catholic women’s group meeting of the year last Wednesday and the two hostesses provided an epic taco night. Good food, great company, and joyful conversation made for the perfect evening!
    • (I missed lobster night in the dining halls for it, and I do not regret it.)

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  • Embarrassing moment of the month: My stomach made the weirdest, LOUDEST sound during a silent prayer time in the tiny chapel, so everyone definitely knew it was me.
    • I actually prayed to God: “I deserved that humbling mortification.” 
  • Hooray for Bible study!
    • (I’m obsessed with the Catholic center activities, but you probably figured that out.)

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Didn’t quite get everyone in the picture (sorry, Christina!), but these ladies are incredible.

  • These are my friends PJ and Ben. They took selfies on my phone when I wasn’t around, and now I’d like to show the world how creepy cool they are.

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You’re on the blog now, PJ.

Fitness/Food

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  • Soon I’ll tell you guys how I liked the Arctic Zero that I received last week! I, uh, finished three of the pints by myself already if that says anything.

Hope you all have a rockin’ Tuesday! Happy fall, by the way 🙂

So tell me:

Did/Do you use flash cards to study?

Is there a place at which you’ve been spending a great deal of time?

What’s the best thing you’ve eaten in the past week?

That egg + cheese sandwich on a whole wheat English muffin at the top left of the food collage hit the spot, I must say.