Gosh I hate how cliche that title sounds, but it’s the topic of this post and the thing on my heart as of late.
First of all, I’ve been praying for a lot of grace and gusto going from six months of having virtually no hard schedule to a full-time work schedule soon. Even just training this week tuckered me out, but that was also due to the stress of wondering, “HOW WILL I REMEMBER EVERYTHING AND ALSO BE THE PT THESE PATIENTS WANT ME TO BE?!” I’m filling the position of another PT who is moving to another position within the same company, and her patients love her (for good reason; she’s awesome at what she does and super kind to boot), so I’m definitely feeling the pressure of filling big shoes.
As I said in my latest day in the life vlog, prayer is major key for everything in my life. So I have been telling God about the pressure I am feeling to be exactly like this amazing PT who is leaving, as well as the fear of losing my mind a bit due to having much less time to pray during the day (and mostly just my mind being filled with thoughts about my job).
There are productivity numbers to hit, patients to care for, nuances to remember, hours to work. No one by any means is putting any undue pressure on me, to be clear. But the internal pressure to rise to the occasion makes me panic and want to just do anything I can to conform and please. But I have to remember what I believe as a physical therapist, given the education I have received. And from a personal standpoint, I have to make time around my schedule for the things that build up my relationship with the One I love and to be intentional about sanctifying my work as one biiiig prayer to God.
I am 1000% having newbie professional stress that I know will subside with time. I am very open to new ideas and experiences, but in all of it, I do not want to lose myself.
On Sunday I made baked cinnamon sugar donut holes (mini muffins) using this recipe, since I don’t have a donut mold. They were everything I wanted in a homemade donut.
For work I’ve decided I will he making ham, cheese and lettuce sandwiches with mayo and mustard. Let me tell you, I LOVE this classic brown bag type of sandwich. Untoasted. It’s nostalgic somehow, even though I barely ate ham and cheese as a child?
I’ve still been posting my workouts on my instagram stories (which are saved on my highlights!), but here was one of my favorites from the past week:
- 100 American KB swings (broken up any way you’d like)
- 100 goblet squats (I broke up into sets of 25)
- 50 pushups (I did sets of 5-10 at a time for form)
- 50 burpees (i did in sets of 10 any style you’d like)
This was a simple and quick workout that focused on form over anything! I’ve been really honing in on perfecting my form as much as possible with every rep to increase the effectiveness of the exercise and make my workouts more efficient.
On Sunday night I learned the dance moves to the bridge of the song “Amigas Cheetahs’ by the Cheetah Girls (go to 3:15 to see the part I learned). I have always loved that part of the song and also the dance moves but it only took me ten years since first seeing the movie to learn it. #disneydreamsdocometrue
I do the dance like twice a day at least now.
I typed this whole post on my phone because my laptop has decided to do magic tricks and make my whole operating system completely disappear??? Getting that checked out this weekend.
Hope you all have a great weekend!
So tell me:
Have you ever felt like the hustle of life / work made you “lose yourself” to any degree?
Have you ever made homemade donuts?
What is a silly childhood dream of yours? Has it ever come true??
4 thoughts on “Don’t lose yourself.”
I miss you Dr. Alison
I know exactly how you feel about starting your new job (congratulations btw!!). At my new job, I sometimes get really nervous on wonder if I’m smart or competent enough for the role. However, I remember every day that God has my back. After months of unemployment and tons of prayer, God has given me this job because he knows that I’m more than capable for the responsibilities. If God believes me, why should i believe in myself?? And once I made that realization, the rest of the day at my job was really fruitful and amazing! So just remember that God has your back – it’s okay to feel that pressure but God knows you can handle your PT responsibilities ❤️❤️
**why shouldn’t I believe in myself
Yesss I love the remembrance that God Hs your back every day. I get nervous before every day too! But you are competent, which is why you got the job, and we’re always learning. Love you, Christine ♥︎