On this Memorial Day, let us never forget those who served our nation for the sake of our freedom and safety.
A hero is someone who has given his or her life to something bigger than oneself.
– Joseph Campbell
How was the weekend!? Or how IS the weekend (for those who have today off!)?
This weekend (alright, this whole week), I’ve given myself permission to embrace this period of almost zero obligations. I had to get over the phase of discombobulation of having nothing to do, but it’s been a pleasant week of acclimating to living farther from campus and relaxing.
There have been some errands and work in there too (keeps me sane TBH), like on Friday. I gave a campus tour, since a lot of BU’s tour guides are out of town these next few weeks. In classic me fashion, I was running late and had to speed walk for 1 hour to make it right on time.
Luckily it was a beautiful day for rush-walking + touring!
Afterwards, I gave myself permission to do a quick 16-minute workout, even though I had all the time in the world and all the gym space in the world (three cheers for the summer lull!).
‘Twas a fun one! 4 rounds, 30 seconds work, 10 seconds rest:
- burpee deadlifts (30# DBs)
- alternating DB snatches (30#)
- modified v-ups
- box jumps
- squat OH half burpees (10#)
- up down planks
Then I nommed on the lunch I packed that morning (part of the reason I was running late). I gave myself permission to take my time to eat this. I’m sure some of you understand that weekday lunch is often more or less inhaled on many days.
leftover peas and roasted broccoli + egg, avocado, pepper jack, sriracha sandwich + blackberries
I had big plans to get a lot Brideshead Revisited reading done for book club, but I got through thirteen pages before I gave myself permission to take a nap in the library’s armchair.
never goes to the library during the school year // falls asleep in the library during the summer
Before going to the library, though, I tried being that person to read on the stationary bike at the gym, but doing that kinda nauseated me. That + gym music = entirely ineffective reading.
I was awoken by an announcement that the library was closing in an hour. Thankfully, my friend Ben welcomed me to hang out with him before dinner, because I was groggy and without anything to do (what a nice problem to have).
Lauren, Nico, Ben and I went to Shawarma King for dinner. I got the vegetarian combo plate, which had falafel, hummus, babaganoush (omg so good), stuffed grape leaves, tabbouleh, cucumber tomato salad, rice, and pita. HOT DANG. I finished 85% of it.
Then we went to Athan’s Bakery for dessert! I got their pistachio gelato, which was the most sub-par gelato I’ve ever had, but it was still a delicious frozen treat.
We finished the night watching the original Grease movie. It’s the best bad movie of all time.
Overnight oats to start the morning!
strawberry banana overnight oats topped with the last of my KIND peanut butter granola
This fueled another nice long walk towards campus…
please interpret this art
…for another Saturday Spartan workout with Ben!
Ben planned out this fun workout for us:
- run around baseball field
- 15 triangle pushups (slightly inclined)
- 2 flexed arm hang holds, any grip (15 seconds each or until failure ← definitely only held it for 5 seconds at some points)
- 25 Roman chair leg lifts
- 15 inverted rows
- 10 step up hops each leg
Topped it off with 10 minutes of core work.
I packed a snacky lunch to eat between the workout and a meeting with my spiritual director (basically someone who teaches me how to better give God permission to speak to me through prayer and to work in my life — the most important permission I could ever give).
rosemary Triscuits with pepperjack cheese + carrots with hummus
I gave myself permission to actually think about the taste of this snack (I guess people call it “mindful eating”), and it was 10x more satisfying than any other time I’ve eaten carrots and hummus/crackers and cheese.
loads o’ popcorn
I rushed through the popcorn and KIND bar, but they were still tasty.
I also gave myself permission to buy water from Starbucks for $0.27 because all the places where I usually fill up my water bottle on campus were closed.
This was less about permission and more about a fundamental need for water. I am endlessly grateful for constant, easy access to clean drinking water.
After spiritual direction, I video chatted with my uncle, aunt and cousins for two hours. We had a beautiful conversation. Ugh, I love them. I got to spend most of the two hours outdoors before I had to charge my phone.
The only downside was standing up and realizing that the bench I was sitting on gave me splinters all over my backside.
I picked up some groceries afterwards and gave myself permission to take an Uber back home instead of walking or taking the bus (the fact that an Uber was only $2.20 at the time was also a big factor).
Look what I found at the store!
Back at home, I showered, warmed up some leftovers for dinner, and spent time with Christie’s boyfriend’s dog, Koga. I got a taste of the neediness that most dog owners talk about. It’s annoying in the most adorable way.
I gave myself permission to SLEEP. IN. I slept until 9:40! I promised I’d make French toast for all of us in the morning though, so I quickly got to work on that.
one whole wheat + one brioche topped with butter sautéed bananas, peanut butter, maple syrup, and slivered almonds + strawberries + glass o’ almond milk
Definitely taking full advantage of Christie’s pretty dishes and silverware for my food photos 🙂
I planned on running to the park ~4 miles away to meet my friends for a picnic in the afternoon, but my hip/quads/knee (!?) have been hurting these past few days, and running was a solid no-go yesterday. So I gave myself permission to pass on the picnic, walk home and do yoga instead.
The pain? Google says it could be some muscle tightness. Could be a labral tear. Hopefully not the latter.
I forget what I did for the rest of the day, but in the evening I walked to campus for Mass, and my friend Evan kindly drove me home afterwards (God bless gentlemanly friends).
Chopped salad for dinner! (Read: Salad cut up with a pair of kitchen scissors.)
spinach, feta, strawberries, avocado, sunflower seeds, and homemade honey mustard vinaigrette
Followed by dried figs with peanut butter and Greek yogurt. A classic.
Now I’m going to give myself permission to continue lying in bed and read Brideshead Revisited for real this time.
Hope you all have a wonderful Monday/Memorial Day!
Give God permission. — St. Teresa of Calcutta
So tell me:
Do you find it hard to give yourself permission to relax?
What is one thing you gave yourself permission to do this weekend?
Any good books you’re reading?
8 thoughts on “Permission”
You listened to your body. You took the time to savor the moments, savor the short sweet workouts, savor the delicious food, and savor God’s goodness in everything. I love that you had such a relaxing week. Lately I’ve learned to give myself permission to sleep or rest when I’m really tired or permission to not do everything.
Thank you for reminding us to treasure and honor the memories of the ones who laid down their lives for our freedom. It’s truly humbling to think about how blessed we are and how much they gave so that we could live in such peace; I’m grateful for that today.
Thank you, dear Emily. It’s great that you’ve learned to let yourself sleep and rest! Doing so is essential to doing everything else well.
Sometimes I do struggle with relaxing… like I feel like I should be doing something or getting stuff done ya know?
I’m glad you had a nice weekend though girl! ALSO just started a new book called “Breaking Bone” by Alison Malee. It’s poetry and so beautiful!
Is that book called Shifting Bone? I just looked it up and it sounds beautiful indeed!
Ohmygoodness, same! Reading while on the treadmill/stationary bike/elliptical is impossible for me. That’s why I opt for mindless TV watching instead 😂
You have to pay for water at Starbucks there?!!
Another for giving yourself permission to just relax and enjoy this long weekend. Definitely something I struggle with so thanks for the reminder as well. I think it boils down to me setting expectations for myself in my head and imagining I have to do everything according to a plan. Oh, perfectionism. The bane and boon of my existence.
I did, however, give myself permission to skip out on free yoga at the park Monday morning I had planned to attend. I knew I’d be up and about the rest of the day and would make me feel rushed if I went to it. Instead, I took my time making a pancake for breakfast and finishing the daily crossword with my parentals.
I used to not have to pay for water at Starbucks, but I guess there’s been some inflation haha!
I am totally with you on imagining that I have to do everything according to a plan. It’s a blessing and a curse. I’m glad you gave yourself permission to eat pancakes and hang out with the fam!! Sounds like a great morning.
Such a fabulous blog post about listening to your body and your mind! You need to give yourself PERMISSION for doing what scares you! I can totally relate to giving yourself permission to mindfully eat, rest your body, do something different, and enjoy what you love! Yesterday, I gave myself permission to eat some blue corn tortilla chips and homemade guacamole, even though it was past 9 PM and I already ate plentifully that day! I had no regrets–everything was delicious!
Mmm yes chips and guac is always a good idea. Good for you, Cassie! ♥︎