Weekend Confessions

 

This weekend…

Confession #1: My best girl friends and I went out for appetizers and cocktails mocktails to celebrate Rachel’s birthday, because we’re still babieeees.IMG_1905

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Confession #2: Yo girls can EAT.

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Confession #3: I cooked some pretty darn tasty chicken and burgers at work, and I really wished I could eat more than just a nibble of them. #occupationalhazard

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Confession #4: I base my decision to get either a sandwich or salad at the food court based on the availability of cornbread. If the salad bar has cornbread, I’m getting salad for the sake of cornbread. I’ll say it one more time: cornbread.

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Confession #5: I’ve been eating more carbs and a little less protein to put my nutrition project’s results to the test. Verdict? Feelin’ great! It could be a mind game, but I feel more energetic. Because carbs give you energy, WHO KNEW!?

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Confession #6: In all honesty, this weekend was a little bit harder on the body image and recovery front than it has been in a long time. I can’t tell if it was from Thursday’s body fat composition test, or if it’s just a stress crutch. Either way, I am keepin’ on and my mind is still in a good place overall, thanks to the amazing community of people in my life (YOU included).

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Confession #7: I bought oatmeal at Au Bon Pain, even though I have oatmeal in my dorm. I went to Mass and a spontaneous breakfast date yesterday morning with Rachel before she went home for some personal business, and I felt the need to buy something to go along with the Perfect Bar (got it from a giveaway on Instagram thanks to my girl, @foodietunes!) and banana that I brought along.

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Confession #8: Whenever I match with people, I feel compelled to take a photo with them.

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leather jackets ayooo

Confession #9: I stood outside in the beautiful weather listening to a song I really liked and pretended I was in some dramatic montage.

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Confession #10: IMO, the best part of the Oscars were when Ryan Gosling and Russell Crowe announced together and when BB8 came on stage.

Also, Chris Rock was funny but made me kinda uncomfortable at some points. I guess that was the point, right?

Confession #11: My friends are hawt.

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One more week until spring break!

So tell me:

One confession from your weekend!

If you watched the Oscars, which part was your favorite?

When was the last time you got dressed up and what was it for?

Five Minute Friday #5: Do Not Fear Your Weakness

My eyes are fluttering shut as I type this.

It’s been a long and blessed week, that’s for sure. There were a bunch of highs and lows worth noting.

High: The crazy warm weather.

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Low: Three exams.

High: Truly incredible people surrounding me.

Low: A lot of my friends have been hurting recently, which hurts my heart.

High: Lots of cake.

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High: Also a lot of veggies and some quality moves & grooves.

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Low: Some body image issues…

…Which leads me to this week’s Five Minute Friday vlog(s). As I mentioned on Monday, this week is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week, so in honor of that, I made this first vlog about not fearing your eating disorder, because it does not have to reign your life.

link to video!

But then I had exercise physiology lab at night, where we completed body fat composition tests, and I decided to follow up with a second five minute vlog. Consider it version “5.5”, if you will.

link to video!

I’ve shared my story on the blog before. If you are interested in reading about that, feel free to check out these posts:

I Used to Have Hips

My Eating Disorder: Looking Back and Moving Forward

99.9% Recovery

Reflecting on My Exercise…Again

The Truth Is…

Lastly, here are a couple of helpful resources for those struggling with an eating disorder. I cannot stress enough the importance of seeking professional help for something as serious as an eating disorder. If you have a friend who is struggling, please consider it a duty to {compassionately, gently, and reasonably} get him or her to a professional.

National Eating Disorders Awareness Help Center

HELPLINE: 1 (800) 931-2237

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 Have a great weekend, friends ♥︎

So tell me:

A high and low of your week.

Have you ever taken a body fat composition test?

What are you doing this weekend? Going out with my girl friends tonight, studying, and sleeping.

Never Alone

Me right now:

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The week just started and I already feel smoked and kicked in the derrière.

I cannot complain, though. First of all, I am blessed to be in school and to have wonderful opportunities ahead of me this week. Secondly, this weekend I went on the Catholic Center retreat in Kennebunkport, Maine, and the time away from school to spend a lot of quality time with God has refreshed my soul and filled my heart.

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The theme of the retreat was “Never Alone,” referring to the importance of friendships in this journey of life and faith. The speaker for the weekend, Fr. Tom, spoke about friendship in such a unique way. What he said was so simple and logical, yet so profound.

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Fr. Tom said two things that have been buzzing in my head all weekend long:

  1. It is improbable that we have the friends we have and that we are living the faith. There are so many improbable events that have happened to bring us to where we are now.
  2. There is such a thing as being “talented” at friendship.

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How true and beautiful those points are. It is no work of my own that has brought me into such a faithful family, to such a privileged life, and to such a loving community (both online and offline). Every good, bad, big, and little thing that has happened in my life shaped me into who I am today and continues to shape me into who God wills me to be.

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For instance, it sends chills down my spine to reflect on how the events of my life led me to start this little ol’ blog. My participation in performance sports ➔ my weight gain ➔ my obsessive and stubborn personality ➔ my discovery of healthy living blogs ➔ my eating disorder ➔ my loving family ➔ my recovery ➔ my renewed outlook on healthy living blogs ➔ the start of this blog ➔ the love and support I receive from the blogging community ➔ the friendships fostered here…

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It sucks that anyone has to have an eating disorder. It sucks that there is suffering and hurt. But the goodness that can be drawn from disorder and suffering can be more fruitful and expansive than anyone could ever hope or imagine. And this is largely because God gave us other people to live with. People can suck, don’t get me wrong, but people can be our companions on this journey that is life.

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Fr. Tom said that friendship is goal-oriented. If you have a shared destination, you have a shared journey. Furthermore, the depth and beauty of the goal impacts the depth and beauty of the friendship.

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happy 20th birthday, Rachel!!!

For me personally, eternal life with God is the ultimate goal, and sharing this goal with my friends transcends our conversations and interactions in order to match it.

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Recovery from an eating disorder is another profound goal that I can {fortunately and unfortunately} share with so many people, thanks to the blogging community. That goal has great depth and beauty, so our interactions with one another match that. I am constantly in awe of how close I have become to people from around the world through the internet, all because we know about hurt, and we know that we want something better.

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Two last things that stood out to me from Fr. Tom’s talks:

  1. The root of all religion is the desire to thank something or someone for life’s blessings.
  2. Each of us has a “sacred mission” and obligation to reach out to a specific person of God’s choosing. We won’t be able reach everyone, but we were definitely meant to reach someone.

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It’s impossible to count all the people who have made an improbable impact (whether it was positive or negative) on my life that has led me to where I am today. But I thank God for giving each one a sacred mission to reach out to me.

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This week is National Eating Disorders Awareness week, and I think this weekend’s retreat theme is so pertinent to the occasion. There is comfort in trusting that everything happens for a reason. Everyone’s journey is different, but I can say from my own experience that I could not have recovered to this point had I not found this community of bloggers/readers who shared the same goal. I also could not have recovered had it not been for such improbable factors in my life, and for all these things, I thank God.

This year’s NEDA Week theme is: “Three Minutes Can Save a Life.” If there is a way that you can compassionately and gently spread the word about getting screened for an eating disorder to your friends or community, please do. It may just be that improbable factor that leads someone to recovery.

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Thank you to all who made this retreat weekend wonderful. Thank you to all of you who have shown me love at any point in my life. Thank you to the Lord of all.

So tell me:

What are some improbable events that have led you to where you are today?

What did you do this weekend?

Thoughts? 

Five Minute Friday #4: Virtual Breakfast Date

This week was full of surprises!

Little surprises, good and not-so-fab alike, but they made for a great week overall.

For example, Wednesday was World Cabbage Day, and Timehop decided to tell me about it.

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“It’s finally here”

Also, the temperature totally went from [sub-] zero to a hundred REAL QUICK. Okay not a hundred, but like, 45 degrees, which is quite the jump.

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stalking campus tours

Rachel and I ran into each other on Wednesday morning, realizing that we matched almost exactly— tour sweaters, jeans, brown boots. Surprised, but not actually.

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One of the best surprises of the week was seeing one of my best friends, Emma, (who moved away a few weeks ago) walk through the door. Rachel and I screamed louder than people should at 10 AM.

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Modern dance class on Wednesday was especially fun (we danced to a “Fever” cover by Beyonce, so that in and of itself was amazing).

National Eating Disorders Awareness week is next week(!), and I was so glad to see these flyers up in the dorms.

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Another quasi-surprise that arose was the realization that I have three exams next week. Turn up.

Anyway, I talk more about this week’s happenings (including things like singing in the rain and thoughts about motherhood) in my Five Minute Friday vlog!

link to the video here!

So tell me:

Did you know it was World Cabbage Day on Wednesday?

Did you have any good and/or bad surprises this week?

Any plans for the weekend?

Three Words for Valentine’s Day Weekend

“I love you!”

…But not said to a significant other. I was saying that to my family and friends though, which is equally (if not, more) important.

I guess my three words are still “Dear No One“. (P.S. Tori Kelly’s dress on the red carpet for the Grammy’s last night, WHAT!? Gorgeous. Wish she won best new artist, but Meghan Trainor is cool too.)

I’m running short on time since I’ve been studying oodles for my exercise physiology exam, so here are some snapshots of my Valentine’s/President’s Day weekend in three words each!

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another jar down

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not as good

{but still delicious}

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post-work lunch

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childhood friends reunite

{dinner at Orinoco + dessert at Paris Creperie}

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fantastic guava flatbread

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roasted portabella arepa

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“Gram’s apple pie”

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Snape-inspired crepe

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this is inside

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warmth before fashion

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“Galentine’s” date night 

{food bucket list at Gene’s Chinese Flatbread Cafewatched “How To Be Single”}

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lamb cumin noodles

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HAND-PULLED NOODLES

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Alton Brown approves

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pork flatbread afterwards

hit. the. spot.

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muffins are underrated

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my Valentine’s date

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Valentine’s self-gift

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lunch with family!

{Dumpling Cafe}

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soup dumplings ROCK

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wish me luck

I LOVE YOU!

So tell me:

Three things you did this weekend (please feel free to use more than three words)!

Do you find that cashew butter is too mild to put on foods (I can’t taste it with my banana/cinnamon oatmeal!)?

Did you watch the Grammy’s? I actually did not, but of course I kept up with TK.