I Should Probably Feel More Stressed For Finals

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It has been way too long since I’ve joined Amanda’s party!

1) Firstly, thank you all for your words of wisdom and support on Monday’s post. You’re the peanut butter to my banana.  That could be taken very wrongly. *Getting my head out of the gutter.* You’re the peanut butter to my jelly— let’s just stick with the classic :)

2) It’s officially finals week (after my one linguistics class today).

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stress relief a la BU

It’s concerning me that I don’t quite feel the stress and pressure of my three exams coming up next week, especially since I have both organic chemistry and anatomy on Tuesday. I NEED TO BE FREAKING OUT. Fear needs to do its evolutionary job and get me to study like a madwoman.

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Don’t worry, mom and pop, I’m studying.

3) “Girls just wanna have fun” was definitely the theme of this past weekend. The Catholic Women’s Group had an epic sleepover on Friday night…

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zebra onesie wins all the awards

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sleepover

yoga mat doubling as sleeping bag base

…and then I went to my roommate’s fashion show! I’ve already showed you her model status, but it was so fun seeing her WERK in person.

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4) Remember when I told you I joined the Catholic Center intramural softball team just because they needed more girls to play? Well, our team made it all the way to the championship game! We didn’t win it, but I’m thoroughly impressed with the team’s undefeated streak up until that point.

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Not that I did anything. I played catcher or far {farrrrrr} right field. Everyone else picked up my slack very well. I thought I hated baseball/softball, but I had— dare I say— fun!

5) In other exciting news, the coolest Asian-Persian-Australian (aka The Big Man’s World) is now in NYC, and I’m so stoked for him!!! Great NYC Food Tour Part 3 {see part 1 + part 2} is in the works.

6) Speaking of other bloggers, the Blend Retreat is in just a couple weeks! As soon as finals are over, I’ll be all about Colorado and Blend.

7) It’s still chilly here in Boston, but the trees are blooming! I feel compelled to take a picture every time I pass by trees that are blooming, even though I’ve already taken half a dozen of the same four trees.

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8) Tori Kelly’s new song is so dang groovy and the lyrics are perfect.

You’ll see me hangin’ with my fam, but that don’t mean I’m living in a bubble. You’ll find me at church, but that don’t me I can’t cause trouble.

9) I need to go to bed, so I’m going to stop typing right here. I hope you all have a wonderful day. Listen to music that makes you wanna dance. And then DANCE.

So tell me:

What is one thing that pleasantly surprised you this past week?

What song are you currently loving?

The Eating and Exercise Disorder Demons That Stick Around

I’ve said it many times before on the blog, but I’ll say it again: honesty is the best policy.

I am blessed to be able to say that it is 100% true that I have recovered tremendously from my eating disorder. Despite my recovery, I would be lying if I said that I am never tempted by disordered thoughts. Some days, the temptation to fall into disordered behaviors is stronger than others.

Especially during this time of year when everyone is getting ready to show more skin in the hotter months, I find myself turning inwards and focusing too much on my diet and exercise. Today I want to share that I do struggle with little “demons” that tell me to act against what I know is good for my body. Recovery does not mean immunization from old habits. However, recovery does mean that you are in a healthy mindset, you’re doing your best and recognizing where you can continue to grow.

  • One day when there was no more skim milk in the dining hall, I consciously chose not to get 2% and got soy milk instead. I ended up kicking myself for it because a) my choice was driven by thoughts of fat and calories; b) soy milk doesn’t wash down peanut butter as well as cow’s milk.

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  • Sometimes I get a little anxious and slightly crabby if I don’t work out when I’d like to.
  • 99% of the time, I love having a salad with my meal, but sometimes I will add a salad to my meal, even if I don’t want it and I know I’ve had plenty of vegetables during the day. Just because I “should” have a salad.

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I do love my salads, but sometimes it’s just too. much. fiber.

  • Sometimes I still think about timing my meals.
  • Sometimes I look in the mirror and compare myself to other girls.
  • Sometimes I’m still afraid of eating too many carbs.

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but then you bite into a meal like this and feel VERY thankful for carbs

  • Sometimes I waste my time thinking about what will be the “most effective” workout, instead of just moving and grooving depending on how I feel.
  • Sometimes I feel the need to “clean up my eats for a while” after indulging (it never happens, but the temptation is still there).

Indeed, these things go on in my brain occasionally. They are usually without effect, but sometimes they do affect my actions and self-image. The point is that, even in recovery, these thoughts exist, and that‘s okay. Just as with any temptation in our lives, we sometimes fall, but the temptations do not need to dictate our actions. Know that you are able to transcend those temptations, no matter how long they seem to stick with you.

Phew. Sorry for the heavier post on a Monday. I was feeling a heart-to-heart today. Nevertheless, I hope you all have a joyful day! You are my rays of sunshine on a cloudy day like today!

So tell me:

If you have a past with disordered eating habits, do you sometimes find yourself tempted to fall into old habits? 

Weekly Moves and Grooves XXVII + Recent Eats

Two more weeks until I’m not a college freshman anymore!

It’s humorous to think about how fast the year went, but I won’t go on about how sentimental it is to see time pass so quickly. Instead, I’ll keep this intro short and sweet and get to this week’s moves and grooves!

I’m also sharing some of my delicious recent eats that haven’t made it to the blog yet. I don’t know about you, but I just like looking at food pictures. My Pinterest, my Instagram, my Facebook, my blog— 95.78% food photos. It creeps me out when people say “food porn,” but I guess that’s accurate…? Pleasure in looking at food photos?

Guatever, I’ll just drop the issue. Enjoy!

weekly moves and grooves

Sunday

Rest

Monday

outdoor leg workout

I forget the exact exercises I did, but it was a total of 30 rounds of 30 seconds work: 10 seconds rest, so it took exactly 20 minutes. All I remember is that there were a lot of jumps and plyometrics that left me sore the next day!

Tuesday

100 burpee challenge

In 7:40. It was tough this week!

Wednesday

outdoor circuit workout

My goodness, I am digging the outdoors these days. It’s still pretty chilly here in Boston despite it almost being May, but that makes for the perfect temperature when you’re working up a sweat!

I did 7 rounds of:

This took about 35 minutes, and I was pooped at the end.

Thursday

Rest

Friday

dynamic warmup + leg workout

It had been a while since I had gone to the gym since the nice weather just calls for moving and grooving outdoors. But I was feelin’ the gym on Friday!

To warmup, I did 3 rounds of:

  • 5 burpees
  • 5 pushups to side plank right
  • 5 pushups to side plank left
  • 15 KB swings
  • 20 air squats

Then the leg workout:

  • 5×8 Bulgarian split squats (35#) // 16 jump lunges between each set
  • 1×8, 2×6, 2×5 hamstring curls (100#) // 20 squat jumps between each set
  • 1×8, 4×5 trap bar deadlifts (135#) // 8 box jumps between each set
  • 3×20 hamstring ball curls // 30 side jump lunges between each set

I walked much more slowly than normal on Saturday.

Saturday

Active rest

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And now onto the recent eats! Disclaimer: the epic amount of salads I’ve been eating is due to the fact that I discovered $185 of dining points left on my account that I must use before the end of the semester. Thus, I have been buying salads at my favorite salad bar ever, which are pricey, so they’ll use up the cash quickly. I’ve also been inviting my brother to eat with me very often :)

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scrambled eggs + English muffin with peanut butter and banana + glass o’ milk

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two eggs with veggies + English muffin with butter and jam + apple

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two eggs with veggies + French toast with peanut butter and banana + glass o’ milk

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scrambled eggs + plain yogurt with fruit + whole wheat blueberry pancake with butter, cinnamon and banana

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baby kale salad with cranberries, pepitas, and some kind of dressing + half a sandwich (roast beef, roasted veggies, dijon mustard, cheese on whole grain ciabatta) + apple

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salad with chicken, goat cheese, spiced pecans, roasted apples, roasted butternut squash, and some kind of dressing (it was good!)

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salad with tomatoes, cucumbers, beets, peas, carrots, chicken, and sundried tomato blue cheese dressing (it was made out of yogurt or something…interesting!)

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salad with beets, carrots, tomatoes, corn, steak, and corn bread!!!

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salad with balsamic + turkey, tomato, lettuce, cheddar, honey mustard sandwich on wheat

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salad with tuna, feta, and honey dijon dressing + mushroom barley

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salad with beets, tomatoes, peas, artichokes, chickpeas, carrots, pasta salad, chicken, and garlic bread (as in, roasted garlic baked inside the bread!)

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pizza + teddy grahams at Women’s Group

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mashed potatoes with turkey chili and broccoli // the weirdest combo ever served in the dining hall, but it was good!

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a Torta de Aceite that my roommate brought home for me // it’s a tender, flaky, sweet and slightly savory flatbread with anise— so good!

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biscuit with honey and butter

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Insomnia chocolate chip cookie that my next door neighbor so kindly gave me

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vanilla and cookies ‘n’ cream ice cream at a Women’s Group sleepover on Friday!

Now I’m hungry.

Hope you all have a superb Sunday!

So tell me:

Did you do fun things outside this week?

What is the best carb you ate this week? Mine is a tie between the roasted garlic bread and the biscuit with honey butter.

Inspired by the Boston Marathon

Now, now. I’m not necessarily inspired to go all out and train for a marathon or even a half marathon now. But I am inspired by the resilient and joyful marathoners whom I witnessed yesterday.

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Winner Lelisa Desisa is in the yellow and third place finisher Wilson Chebet is in the green!

My friends and I found a great spot near Mile 25 to spectate the runners shout and cheer them on like it’s going out of style. If you follow me on Snapchat, you might have seen the videos of me yelling, “DIG DEEP. THIS IS IT, YOU GOT IT.”

My voice dropped a couple octaves yesterday.

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Of course, I had to have a good breakfast for Marathon Monday. All that screaming and cheering needed fuel, ya know? I ate a whole wheat apple pancake with peanut butter and banana, scrambled eggs, and even some fancy turkey bacon (although turkey bacon is devil’s food in the eyes of my friends who love real bacon). Glass o’ milk on the side!

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It was a rainy, gloomy day in Boston yesterday, but I imagine that the runners might have preferred that over an extra warm day. It was pretty chilly for us on the sidelines though!

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I went to the sidelines too late to see the top finishers for elite women, but we got to see the elite men and a lot of people from the first two waves. I didn’t get to see Tina or Morganne, but I know they killed it!

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It was an incredible experience watching the marathoners—those on their two feet, those on one foot, those on wheels, those in military uniform, those wearing fun costumes, those running barefoot(!). All of them are amazing human beings from whom we can all draw inspiration.

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Whenever a marathoner would blow a kiss, come over to high five the spectators, raise the roof, or just smile really big, it was like a ray of sunshine.

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blowing kisses!

My friend Fiona was so awestruck that she asked if I wanted to run a marathon with her during our senior year. WHOA THERE. Let’s not get ahead of ourselves here… I’m perfectly content with burpees and 4-5 mile runs when I’m feelin’ it.

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I mean, maybe it will happen one day. Who knows? Marathons are about dreaming big, right?

Cheering on runners gets pretty exhausting #MarathonMonday

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Maybe I should organize a burpee marathon. 1000 burpees for time. Oof.

Hope you’re all having a great day!

So tell me:

Did you watch the Boston Marathon yesterday? Did you have a favorite moment?

Have you ever run a marathon? Do you want to run one?

Would you be down for a burpee marathon?

Weekend Confessions IV

Happy Marathon Monday!

I am stoked to be a part of the Boston community for Marathon Monday this year. Y’all know that I’m no runner, but the energy and camaraderie that is emanating from this city is exhilarating!

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Boston Forever by Judith Chasin {via}

Also, it’s awesome knowing that so many of YOU love running, and you might know some people running in the marathon. I know that Tina @ Carrots ‘n’ Cake and Morganne @ Nut Butter Runner are running in it! Maybe I can stalk them and track them down to say hello (in the most non-creepy way possible)!

I’ll be sure to fill you in on the excitement after today. Praying for all the workers, volunteers, spectators, and runners!

And now, I have some lighthearted confessions about my week that you can either relate to or use to feel better about yourself. :)

I finished a jar of peanut butter by myself in one week.

Here we see the very last of my (delicious) Teddie peanut butter that I bought just two Fridays ago. On Saturday morning, I made some quick oats with cinnamon, vanilla protein powder, banana, and a pinch of salt, and then I just dumped it in the almost empty jar!

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My buddy PJ told me, “I’m not even mad, I’m just impressed.”

I was the “mom” secretly taking pictures of my two friends getting Confirmed.

Congratulations to my dear friends Cherie and Janice, who both received Confirmation this weekend! We celebrated with them at Mass and then later at Cherie’s place for fellowship and food. Speaking of food…

I went back for seconds of Cookie Butter ice cream, because COOKIE BUTTER ICE CREAM.

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Swing dancing = weekend “turn up” in our books.

Sweaty ol’ stranger men and all.

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I’m about a head-and-a-half shorter than all the girls pictured above.

What’s life like up there above 5’3″?

I missed an online homework assignment for organic chem.

Gahhhhh. It’s one of those grades that doesn’t make a huge difference, but it’s especially disappointing to lose points for it because of my carelessness. Thankfully, after emailing the professor, he kindly allowed me to complete the assignment late at no penalty.

Moral of the story: work hard at all times, make sure the professor knows you, and don’t be afraid to ask for help. Life happens!

My meals and eating times have been very weird lately.

I’ve been having double lunches and snacky/weirdly-timed dinners.

On Friday, I ate a late lunch at 2pm after class. Then I snacked on a lot of veggies, crackers, and hummus during work. Then I ate dinner at almost 10 pm at Clay Pot Cafe with my mom, bro, and family friends.

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normal lunch

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super late dinner

On Saturday, after my friends’ Confirmation and anatomy review, my blood sugar was low to the flo’, so I needed to eat lunch in the dining hall before going to Cherie’s place to eat more Indian food and desserts. Then dinner was chips at swing dancing and frozen banana with peanut butter in my dorm at midnight.

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lunch before Cherie’s

Finally, yesterday, I ate fruit and peanut butter for breakfast in my dorm, a normal brunch at 12:30pm, a super early snack-turned-dinner at 4pm, and then a light second dinner at 9:30pm.

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snack-turned-dinner

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second dinner + a biscuit and some curly fries

I have no idea. This is college, so nothing is normal.

I dream that I can be in an a cappella group, but then I sing to myself in my dorm and come back to reality.

I’ll leave the singing glory to my friend Adrienne and her other awesome a cappella group members. They blow me away every single time!

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This cover of “All I Ask of You” by Josh Groban and Kelly Clarkson has been on repeat.

It’s a beautiful thing amidst my pop/rap/alternative regulars.

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Please tell me you can empathize with me on some of these?

I hope you all have a great day and week ahead! Just as I will be cheering on the marathoners, I am cheering YOU on in your endeavors this week!

So tell me:

Something new you tried in the past week!

Is your eating schedule ever outta whack?

Do you know anyone running in the Boston Marathon/anyone who has run in it in the past?